Wish..

Why is it a taboo to be planning ahead of time?
Is it just because that people in life just are too afraid to face it?
Or is it that people are reluctant to let go of everything that they have now and leave?
Well.. In my perspective, life's just a stretch of destiny planned by God for me..
To learn the different spices in life..
Sweetness.. Bitterness.. Sourness.. Spicyness..
All these combined into a brand new memory which we grasped on forever..
On our deathbed, only memories created in this world can be taken along..
We have to leave everything which we owned or once treasured or loved behind..
This feeling is definately heartstabbing..

In life, we can strive and achieve on everything we wished and hoped for..
But when its our time to leave, only other people can help to finish what we hoped for..
Hence.. Here is my wish, where I hope there's someone who will get to complete what I wished for..

When my time's up..
I hope to be placed in a white casket..
Wearing a white silky dress..
Holding two white roses..
And be surrounded by white, pink and blue roses..
Then.. Be it to be burried or put into flames..
I just hope I can be placed together with my loved ones who is already up there with God..
I would like to have songs sang by my loved ones, relatives or friends..
To be able to hear their voices for one last time would really be wonderful..
To have a speech session whereby all are invited to voice out what they feel about me..
Be it good or bad.. I'll be happy that I'm remembered..
Just that, I hope that after this, all the bad memories can be remorsed..
I hope that people who come will wear white clothings..
So that there is no darkness around..
I hope to have my diaries placed together with me..
So that even if I have to leave anad forced to forget this journey of life..
At least I can read the diaries I've written, and reminisce back on the days that I have had before..
If there is anyone who is strong..
Please give strength, encouragement and support to my loved ones..
Help them overcome the sadness inside..
And to offer them hugs, so that they wouldn't feel so alone and sad..
Do remember me once in a while and drop me a visit whenever you all are free..
I'll be real happy to have a bit of updates from all of you..
Do sing a song or two and I'll sing it with you in heart..=)

Lastly..
Thank you for all the memories shared together..
Thank you for all the seasons and all the reasons I'm loved and treasured..
Thank you for all the understanding and care showered on me..
I hope that all my loved ones will know that I Love Them Real Much..
Always is and always will be..
Eventhough I did not put it in words everyday..
Or I might not be able to show how much I Love Them..
But well..
I hope at least, there's a part of the memories we shared..
Will be able to trigger the love I have for my loved ones..
I do Love my family and loved ones..
For Now and Always..

What a Day..

Today..
felt so emo..
i wonder why..
mebe itz d weather..
since it's raining..
hence, the emo-ness came..

N well..
I've kinda sorted things out which have been in my heart for this week d..
felt kinda relieved when I know that I ain't doing anything wrong and not distrusted..
Coz I cherish the bond of trust in between..=)
Life's like a jizzaw puzzel..
We wudn't know which puzzel will be placed in every second..
And I hope, my puzzel will be placed accordingly and be glued for good..=)

N i saw a full rainbow today..
from a mountain to another mountain..
I was winding down the window, taking pictures..
Felt like a small kid which have not seen rainbow before..haha..
N it makes me reminese the moments where I saw rainbow with the one I cherished..
Saw twice.. or izit trice on it ler..
hehe..
When rainbow appears, i noe, everything's gona be fine^^

N had crabs for dinner today..
dapao-ed back to eat..
felt so happy..=)
haha..
long time didn't really go out for crabs d..
and now, I can have all my time sitting in home eating crabs^^

Tomorrow gota go work again..
Hope everything's gona be fine again..=)

Aloha^^

Its been a really really long while since I wanted to set up a blog account..
Yet, the thought had been pushed behind again n again..
As I just could not find the motivation to just click in and creat an account..
So.. here I am..
Finally^^ ~~~

Well..
First time on blog..
Find it hard to start blabbering what I wana tell..
Guess.. It arent easy to talk to my ownself here..haha..

Hmm..
Life has been facing quite a bit of ups and downs..
Working life aren't as easy as it seems to be..
There's a lot more in a company whereby we will only realize we're in the REAL world once we got into the working life..

It is just not easy being an Adult..
Duh..I sounds sooooo old...XP haha..
Anyhow, life is just a pile of burden that we hope we can shed it away..
But well...
As easy as it seems, but it is definately like a chewing gum..
The more we hope we can get rid of it, the harder it sticks to us..
Am learning to cope up with the stress level and different kind of lifestyle..

Living as an adult is certainly a brand new experience to me..
It has been quite a bit of whirl and twirl in life..
Where I get to learn the reality of life bit by bit..
Life's like a shot of pictures, revealing itself to us in a different light..
A light where I hope I can be shield off from..

Listen to songs over and over again..
Trying to find a suitable song to calm me down..
To try to indulge myself in a different relaxed world..
Away from cluttered issues..

Its Saturday today..
and gona keep this intro short for now..

~~Signing off~~
Silvershadow 22082010