Today..
It was just another normal working day..
But it was my 1st time driving Merz to work..
Coz my wira's stereo player was stolen by people on Monday night..
Driving to work on Tuesday, everything seems to be so silent..
I miss my radio..
And on the same day, while I was driving home, it was raining heavily..
And suddenly, there's a strong burnt smell coming out from the aircond..
I was scared, and turned off the aircond..
I then drove home slowly and carefully..
Afraid that there might be anything that has gone wrong with the car..
Then, on Wed, Bee fetched me to work, and another friend of mine fetch me back from work..
And today, the Merz is drove by me to work today..=)
Newayz..
Was thinking a lot these days..
Will the plan of migrating to Canada be realizing soon?
I'm afraid.. That everything I have in M'sia will be gone again..
It was such a painful memory, leaving everything behind to go for my diploma few years back..
And after nine months of putting bits and pieces of strength and faith to settle down in Canada, it turned out that I have to leave everything behind to come back from Canada!
And now.. Again!
Fate is really spinning me around, again and again..
I really hope to be settling down, building up friends, career and relationship..
But, will I have to leave everything back here again, and start all over again??
This time, will be the final decision to be rooted in Canada..
To have the thought to leave everyone and everything behind hurts a lot..
I hope, by cherishing people and things around, at least, there'll still be a chance, that when I come back once again, I'll be able to reconnect with everyone again..
What is relationship if there'll be distance?
I'm afraid of long distance relationship..
It is hurtful, painful, and yet, unspeakable..
Tears flowing, heart aching, mind lingering, soul leaving..
Is this what I get from loving others?
God.. you've imposed a lot of pain in me..
Can this not be the last, but the first to be of happiness to me?
Can the last one be the end of all this?
How I wish that I can have a say on everything that's planned..
To be able to choose my own path, and to be who I want to be..
Life's like a lucky draw..
We will never know what is in it for us..
Either happiness or dissapointment..
How I hope that I am able to know what is lying ahead waiting for me..
On that, I'll be able to manage my own plans, and destiny..
I want to know>>~~..The Journey My of Life..~~
